My Spiritual 360
I was recently reflecting on my connection to Spirituality…
…..and how I went through a period of around 15 years with a complete repulsion to all things “Spiritual” to now, at age 35, being a Spiritual Teacher and Mentor.
But before I start, I wanted to share – if you don’t resonate with the word “Spirituality” like I didn’t for many years, I invite you to think of this term as “Raising Consciousness”, because that is essentially what Spirituality is.
And now, here is my journey….
I was born into a family of an extremely strict Christian Religion (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints a.k.a. Mormons). Through their religious teachings, I lived a very sheltered life. I received comments from friends over the years that it seemed like I “grew up under a rock”. I was expected to to uphold certain beliefs and engage in certain practices, which I’m not going to get into the details, but what I will share is that from a very young age, I innately felt very misaligned with this religion and all of its teachings.
By the age of 15 I had finally conjured up the guts to follow MY gut (intuition, inner knowing) and leave the church. I knew at the core of my being, on a Soul level, that this was not the life for me…So I stopped going to church on a Sunday and all other religious events and faced the consequences of being the “outcast” and “rebel” of my family. This was an extremely difficult and dark period for me. I laid in bed every Sunday morning, pretending to be asleep until my family left to go to church. It was then that I was able to have some alone time to contemplate life and explore what felt right to me, and of course – start rebelling.
The thing is – when you are forced to do something against your will to solely please others, even though it feels so totally wrong to you especially as a child, when you have virtually no control – a few normal, natural human responses are to “numb out” and/or eventually rebel, and both of these manifested for me.
After years of exploring new ways to connect with life, find my meaning and purpose whilst going down many rabbit holes, it wasn’t until I travelled the world solo, at age 24, that I started to find more purpose.
My eyes were opened.
I started focusing less on SELF and more on possibilities. I was however, still very disconnected from my inner self, my Soul and the steps I needed to take to truly Belong… To re-integrate all parts of me that had been disowned, dissociated or suppressed along the way.
Finally, at age 27, I was introduced to Yoga and through this practice and many others I discovered over the years, the re-connection to myself, Spirituality and awakening began……..
• I first experienced a deep, spiritual connection to nature and all things, Oneness, while I was surfing in Puerto Escondido, Mexico and again hiking through the Sacred Valley of the Incas in Peru (although I had little idea of what this connection was at the time)
• I learned a deeper connection to my body and breath through Yoga practice.
• I learned how to connect with my Soul and inner knowing through Meditation practice.
• I learned about my ego, past trauma and also the mind and body connection through Psychology and Energy Healing.
• I learned how to connect with my heart, how to open it and release trauma through Tantra work.
There have been many books, Mentors, Teachers, training, personal and formal study along the way also.
I have respect for people of all faiths and understand that Religion brings a great sense of fulfillment and purpose for many, my only advice and prompt is - if you are feeling deeply misaligned in any areas of you life, regardless of your external influences - start some deep self-enquiry and questioning your truth.
Your Soul’s path is totally unique and different to your friends’ or partners’, or workmates’ etc. Tune in and start asking within… Listen.. Meditation is the perfect practice to undertake self-enquiry.
When we can commit to living in accordance with our own truth, our own Soul’s path, life becomes magical, because you are now living the life you ought to be, not to satisfy anyone else, but you.
If you are seeking guidance with your Soul Journey, check out my offerings to see what suits you.
Much love,
Bel x
